suddenly... miss... you.. sooooo much...

we can sit under the sky looking up at the stars thinking how tiny and insignificant we are how other people in the world are also sharing the same sky as we see, like a blanket. funny how there are still so many things we are unaware of so many problems in life we still have not faced so much more room for us to mature. funny how i feel that i have grown so much i have aged 10 years. funny how boundless things are happening elsewhere while you are sitting still, admiring and sky, deeply engaged in your own thoughts.

hopefully 10 years down the road I will recall all these, laugh and say, my, how much I have grown since.

:)

sigh hair is very ugly now. hairdressers like to snip off lotsa hair. If they could, they would love to make you a baldie.

I'm setting this blog as a private one soon, so.. if you have been reading my blog and keeping quiet all these while, too bad lor. MUAHAHA. I shan't add you qua qua qua. unless you ask me for it. ;0)

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I placed my flaws in my hand
and I showed you
every single one of them

Would you judge me?
I know I won't.
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Trust has to be earned, not demanded.


sorry I'm not that frivolous.

& ohh why are butter cookies so delicious.


ommmmm munch munch.

the smallest things

I laugh at the smallest things and people don't get it. why?! Aren't they funny!!

Once, I was driving in the circuit then when I made a turn around a bend, I accidentally pressed the horn and scared some motorcyclists in front of me.

Wah lau! It was DAMN funny!

I then tried to stifle my laughter and shot an it-was-funny-wasn't-it!-look at my instructor-
he merely looked straight at the road with no particular expression really.

I had given a thought on it, I figured he might actually been used to situations like this. I'm sure there are students who enjoy honking for the sake of scaring motorcyclists ahead of them. That would explain why he didn't find that really laughable situation funny at all. Hmmm that must be it.

But I still find it very hilarious and I kept this incident safe inside my humor pocket. hehe.

:p

My life

These few days have been terrible. I've lost my appetite (cravings are not counted okay) and my mood's so bad it's like a brewing storm 24/7. And the thing is... it being brewing, it doesn't really have any escape :(

All these made me miss my friends a lot :(


and Gab too. :(

And to make things worse, ZARA sale's not very cheap and I have very little savings left. double :(


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anyway,

I have started driving and it's really quite scary! It really exposes me to all sorts of instructors man ( haha ok i'm exaggerating, I have only met 3 ). I've seen those who are really responsible and patient and those on the extreme end. Terrible! I met one who merely sat beside me and commented on how I like steering to the left and nothing else really. I didn't even learn anything much that day, what a bitch man he.

Anyway, I credit it to my luck when I met the same nice and patient instuctor twice!! :D :D :D It felt like I striked TOTO man! Hopefully all my lessons in the future would be a smooth sail~


Ok lah, hopefully I can do well and pass my driving soon :):) Somehow the feeling of making the vehicle move makes me very satisfied!


&.. Hope my mood turns around soon.. :)

I feel like a loser who can't do anything right. Falling and falling, nobody gives a chance and who cares. Some things are stable and firm, they will always be. I see no point in trying to change them. Who else hurts other than myself. I am so tired of it. Sometimes I really feel like getting out of everything, cause nothing is simple in this world, everything is complicated and has implications. I want to smile frown laugh and cry. I want to feel all the emotions in full-effect. 'Cause they all belong to me and I want them to be genuine.



I don't mean to have this as an emo post. But I guess that's me, like how I like to write all my troubles and worries into my diary.
Maybe cos I hope my troubles would vanish after writing

while I keep my happy memories safe in my memory.


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