A new year is drawing near....

had a simple xmas spent with some of my loved ones. : )

please please, really really want to learn guitar so much. when will i ever be able to play bossa nova and fangdatong's songs on one..?

not too late for new year's resolutions, master guitar! next on list!

The girl from ipanema.. a song i can never get tired of hearing. :) i kinda like all the sorts of versions by different singers.. heh.

and....
really want to master a new language too... :)

I told Yiru even if i listen to jae hee and kelly speak korean to each other for 10 years i still wouldn't understand them.

i need subtitles.





and a guitar.




ahhhhhhh guitar crazed~

jazz is love. : )

i like the feeling of freedoommmmm~

oooh got the sudden urge to blog~ whooo.

today's POA paper was.............

BLEAGGGHHHHHH

If my brain were to pop out of my body and be able to manifest itself into sponge..
I wish i could squeeze ALL the juice out from it man~

chey maybe i'm not destined to be an accountant heh.

ok shall get my butt off the seat infront of my lappy and go study stats. (sigghhh srsly not in the mood)

me=statistician ?!

:S eiks.

you may not be reading but still...

I feel so glad to share this special friendship with you which i feel safe and i know for sure that you'll never ever do anything to harm me. Sometimes i feel like we have been through a lot together- all the hardships in a complicated relationship... and all the emotional rollercoaster. Maybe... maybe it's because of that, we see each other in a different light, in a light that reflects the genuine and very true us. I don't need to tell you a lot neither do you need to but we understand each other in the silence. I really appreciate this special precious friendship a lot a lot and i wish it would never ever end...

:)

AHHHHHHHHHH omg~

faints. I love fangdatong~ :D

Hi!

I am moving to another blogspot! :)

suddenly... miss... you.. sooooo much...

we can sit under the sky looking up at the stars thinking how tiny and insignificant we are how other people in the world are also sharing the same sky as we see, like a blanket. funny how there are still so many things we are unaware of so many problems in life we still have not faced so much more room for us to mature. funny how i feel that i have grown so much i have aged 10 years. funny how boundless things are happening elsewhere while you are sitting still, admiring and sky, deeply engaged in your own thoughts.

hopefully 10 years down the road I will recall all these, laugh and say, my, how much I have grown since.

:)

sigh hair is very ugly now. hairdressers like to snip off lotsa hair. If they could, they would love to make you a baldie.

I'm setting this blog as a private one soon, so.. if you have been reading my blog and keeping quiet all these while, too bad lor. MUAHAHA. I shan't add you qua qua qua. unless you ask me for it. ;0)

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I placed my flaws in my hand
and I showed you
every single one of them

Would you judge me?
I know I won't.
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Trust has to be earned, not demanded.


sorry I'm not that frivolous.

& ohh why are butter cookies so delicious.


ommmmm munch munch.

the smallest things

I laugh at the smallest things and people don't get it. why?! Aren't they funny!!

Once, I was driving in the circuit then when I made a turn around a bend, I accidentally pressed the horn and scared some motorcyclists in front of me.

Wah lau! It was DAMN funny!

I then tried to stifle my laughter and shot an it-was-funny-wasn't-it!-look at my instructor-
he merely looked straight at the road with no particular expression really.

I had given a thought on it, I figured he might actually been used to situations like this. I'm sure there are students who enjoy honking for the sake of scaring motorcyclists ahead of them. That would explain why he didn't find that really laughable situation funny at all. Hmmm that must be it.

But I still find it very hilarious and I kept this incident safe inside my humor pocket. hehe.

:p

My life

These few days have been terrible. I've lost my appetite (cravings are not counted okay) and my mood's so bad it's like a brewing storm 24/7. And the thing is... it being brewing, it doesn't really have any escape :(

All these made me miss my friends a lot :(


and Gab too. :(

And to make things worse, ZARA sale's not very cheap and I have very little savings left. double :(


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anyway,

I have started driving and it's really quite scary! It really exposes me to all sorts of instructors man ( haha ok i'm exaggerating, I have only met 3 ). I've seen those who are really responsible and patient and those on the extreme end. Terrible! I met one who merely sat beside me and commented on how I like steering to the left and nothing else really. I didn't even learn anything much that day, what a bitch man he.

Anyway, I credit it to my luck when I met the same nice and patient instuctor twice!! :D :D :D It felt like I striked TOTO man! Hopefully all my lessons in the future would be a smooth sail~


Ok lah, hopefully I can do well and pass my driving soon :):) Somehow the feeling of making the vehicle move makes me very satisfied!


&.. Hope my mood turns around soon.. :)

I feel like a loser who can't do anything right. Falling and falling, nobody gives a chance and who cares. Some things are stable and firm, they will always be. I see no point in trying to change them. Who else hurts other than myself. I am so tired of it. Sometimes I really feel like getting out of everything, cause nothing is simple in this world, everything is complicated and has implications. I want to smile frown laugh and cry. I want to feel all the emotions in full-effect. 'Cause they all belong to me and I want them to be genuine.



I don't mean to have this as an emo post. But I guess that's me, like how I like to write all my troubles and worries into my diary.
Maybe cos I hope my troubles would vanish after writing

while I keep my happy memories safe in my memory.


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For you, BUDDY :)

hey dodo! Told you to keep a lookout on ivytan.blogspot.com , did you?! Hahhaha anyway it's quite lame that I'm writing this, given the fact that I see you almost everyday. :-0

Just to say that you've been a great companion during this period and I appreciate everything that we've done together. :D I seriously enjoy the times we spent chatting about PRACTICALLY everything under the sun and burst out laughing at practically nothing at all. (seriously, it's really not very funny sometimes hahahaha) & lunch's our 2nd favourite time of the day ( can't believe we actually ranked it)

You do make a very good substitute boyfriend hohoho, aren't you honoured. Not to mention, a good emo buddy also. HAHA. I don't wish for us to emo together though, aiya, since we're spending time together might as well make great load of fun out of it. ;) If only sadness and sorrow would never come to us both. (ok, not realistic) :(

You made my working life a smooth cruise. :)

Ok, I shall stop here, you know I love you! :))


psssttt 7/5's coming! :D

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bin

HAPPY BELATED BDAE BIN!! i'm so sorry I couldn't make it to the celebration but make-up celebration's alrite rite:)
Am really glad that I have you as a friend and promise we'll always be there for each other whenever where ever! ipod gang yeah!!
I really do appreciate you and sorry for not being able to meet up these few days.. soon ok! (I know I say that all the time)

Ok lah, sorry for the short post cos I'm really zzzzzzzzz tired. haha but contented though :)

<3!

: )

I like my times alone I like to keep to myself sometimes I like the small company of people whom I like and am comfortable with 1 2 3 or 4 it doesn't matter cos I appreciate you all the same.

:)

sigh

this is random cos I was in this cheerful mood just now.


:(

My half-day friday :D

I know my last post sounded really critical and everything but it wasn't anything life-or-death! Ooops now that I read back I realised it sounded too consequential...

:-o
Sorry bin and xl!
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Oh yah I work only half-day on fridays 'cos of my theory lessons! hehehe I quite like it really 'cos it gives me the excuse to sleep like a log at home after lessons. Which leaves dodopig at work with her favourite colleagues.

She says the name dodopig strucks her as something stupid and fat 'cos it's supposed to be the hybrid of a pig and a dodo.

& I was like wow, I didn't even think of it that way. I called her dodopig merely 'cos I like the word 'dodo' (heheh so cute dodododo) and I like calling her a pig (it provokes a funny reaction).

hehe so creative of me. dodopig.

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I walked back home after my lesson due to the wonderful weather and I felt... so at peace with myself.

Seriously I mean it.
I wasn't rushing to work every morning, squeezing with all the other working people or busily coding my documents and blah blah blah what not.

I was just walking peacefully and keeping my mind clear without any distractions or negative thoughts.
:)


Anyway, I realised I sing to myself when I'm alone sometimes. :-0 ahahhaha I find it very weird and funny at the same time!
'cos I don't really wanna stop singing(it's not v loud lah) but it can be quite embarrassing!

me: la la la...~
-covers my mouth-
brain: omg you're such an embarrassment shut it.
mouth: LA LA LA LA LA LA~~~~

maybe my mouth and brain don't coordinate well. hahaha just kidding I'm feeling lame. It never happened ok.

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Anyway on my way back home I stopped by Econ. I was thinking of khalil fong then and then suddenly...

His music was playing on the radiooo in the store!!!

omg I know it's very lame but I felt like it's fate. Hahaha.
Omg can I explain how much I looooveeee him?! hehehehhe... maybe Dodopig can.

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Can't wait to see G when he comes out!!! :DDDD


<3<3<3<3
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wow what a long post, as compared to my usual posts lah. I'm in a chatty mood. hahaha. ok can't wait to meet up with my friends!! :D Love!

bloody hell

I'm very worried now cos i think i've done the stupidest thing ever. I told myself it's not entirely my fault but still... the regret is still present. Some part of me want to bash the other part of me right now..

Sigh i know i shldn't be so harsh on myself but i can't help it.

now i can only pray pray pray that things turn out the way i want it to be... sigh.


arggggghhhh

a n g r y

angry cos of some thick person

A sad note

I really don't want to part with you 'cos you mean so much to me.


Can I say more? You've read every message in my heart.


<3

<3<3!

I'm so in love with Khalil Fong's voice.

*swims in the skyyyyy*

and his talent and the way he carries himself (quiet confidence okay) and his down-to-earth humble personality and sentimentality.

gagagaggagagagagagagagaggagaa~~~~~




One of my favourites. :)

make up brushes!

omg I know it's damn stupid. I also thought the interest would be short-lived buttttttttttttt.....

I can't stop obsessing about make-up and those soft brushes!!!!! Gahhh!


Xin ling, maybe you're right about me having too much time on my hand. hahaha.

Ok after I've mastered the skills of make-up I'll start on Caliban first. muahahhaha :D


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Ok lah, back to watching some more make-up videos lah. byebye.

food.

I was reading this particular issue of 8days that revealed how Jennier Aniston maintain her slim figure with consistent diets and exercises etc.

Then I felt bad for celebrities man.

It's true right? As in, they DO rely on their looks for 'food' (kao lian chi fan). Okay, more or less, at least. Once they gained weight.. woah, pictures of the newly-found fats will be splashed across the net and people will point fingers at them and laugh.

Common folks like me... hahahhaa forget it man. It will go something like this:

Friend: hey, you have a new double chin.

Me: hmmmm.. fish and chips or pasta, fish and chips or pasta.... oh ya, what were you saying.

Can't help it lah. I'm a live-to-eat person. -.- Sigh don't ask me to give up on my potato chips and chocolates and pasta and chicken wings and curry and so on man.

If only I can eat all I want and not get fat. HAHA. * i think that's what most girls want :-o

Bimbotic post

Got the sudden urge to own alllllllll the different brushes for make-up so I can brush brush brush cheeks!

Those brushes just look so... soft.


brush brush brush~


Got the urge to pick up and master make-up skills now just to help people brush brush brush their cheeks now man. -.-

Man I'm lame.

I'm scared to stiff.

Sigh, there is no need to explain what is upcoming and scaring the hdjfkaskdj out of me...
Everyone's talking about it :( :(

I would be innocently browsing through blogs, humming a tune in my mouth, then BLAM!!!
someone says that the results are coming out soon.

then i become frozen with fear for two seconds. (the time depends, really)
Before recovering and continuing browsing through blogs as per usual.

This behavior of mine is becoming worse as time passes by and the day is creping nearer and nearer. I'm practically frozen all the time now. :(:(

Seriously, I would rather be in denial. Haha as in, you know, receiving results out of the blue in the mailbox? or seeing my results in letters in the air?
that would save so much trouble and i would be able to stop brooding over it.. sigh.

Sigh, right now, I just want to get it over and done with, maybe with a bit of dutch courage? (hehe kidding)

Hahaha aiya, at the end of the day I will still be a scaredy cat and if i faint, please don't wake me thanks :(

IP MAN ROCKS!!!!

OMG THE SHOW ROCKSSSSS, SUPERDUPLE NICEE~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel... so proud you know!
So proud of Chinese martial arts!!!

See me hurl my fist! HUR!! A cockroach died. A mosquito stopped in the air...


it's too much for them. *tsktsk*


I'm so glad I caught the show, even if it's, ok, late. :o

I was so afraid that the show might end badly with Ip man dying (you know, like Huo yuan jia's :( ) but it didn't!!!!
It was sooo comforting to know that he turned out alive and he reunited with his family! (I know I'm using a lot of superlatives :p)


MAN this show sends the chills down my spine man, I was kept alert throughout the entire film, afraid that the Japanese might kill him for some reason.
And when he did those fast-paced fist-hurling action...
I tell you, I was so impressed.


Chinese pride!!! Go Chinese martial arts!

Songs that struck a cord in my heart

You know those songs?
Those that dig out the tears from you or those that make you close your eyes, listen with rapt attention, simply 'cos you don't want to miss any beautiful parts.


They are... beautiful.
: )


"I found a dream that I could speak to
A dream that I can call my own"


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ANYWAY! DO YOU KNOW THE SONG YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE IS ACTUALLY A MELANCHOLIC SONG?!



-.-MAN!
I've been cheated all these while, thanks to the cheery tune.
Here's the lyrics:

"The other night dear, as I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
But when I awoke, dear, I was mistaken
So I hung my head and I cried.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

I'll always love you and make you happy,
If you will only say the same.
But if you leave me and love another,
You'll regret it all some day:

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

You told me once, dear, you really loved me
And no one else could come between.
But not you've left me and love another;
You have shattered all of my dreams:

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

In all my dreams, dear, you seem to leave me
When I awake my poor heart pains.
So when you come back and make me happy
I'll forgive you dear, I'll take all the blame.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away"


-.- Chey.

Ok, my blog is getting boring and stale

Haha I'm seriously lousy at blogging. :/
Sometimes I encounter situations that go wellwell that's something interesting to share with my friends! in my head, and then I forget (ok lah, I admit laziness plays a teenyweeny role too...)

Anyway... Happy birthday Avril!! :D









Hope you'll enjoy your new job :)

Happy Birthday B!

You probably won't read this but I still want to say it!
Happy birthday!! :DD

Hope you'll treat me nicer!


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I especially hate it when a bird (or more) flies over me.

Hate it hate it.

It has something to do with their constant need to poop, I believe.


If you ask me, I'm not a fan of birds, other than penguins. 'Cos penguins are cute and they waddle and they like to slap hi5 with their fins. ( ever watched Madagascar???)

You don't see any crow doing that.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICE LING!

:D I had fun today and I hope the rest feel the same! :)))

Happy birthday Eunice Ling!
Whenever you're feeling down, don't forget that we'll be there for you.
Don't feel old,


cos we're equally old ( hehe even though I'm a Scorpio :D )



May your wishes come true!


And we must must must meet up more often man.
Good luck for your NAPFA next week!


<3<3<3<3LOVES

SICK

Still sick but I had one of the best laughing fits I haven't had for VERYYYYY LONG TIME just now. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

*whew* It was a pleasant memory, even though I can scarcely remember what made me hysterical. -.-zzzz

Anyway, just feeling... ok, what's another word for emo? Kidding, alright, I'm feeling nostalgic.

I miss you my friends. :(

I'm not mentioning names in case I miss out anyone and I will be doooommed. But you guys know who you are. :) People who brighten up my life. After I have recovered.. we shall go for a big meal okay- to celebrate the decamping of the STUPID virus (I hate you). Bring on the buffet man. Also, am so upset over that fact that I couldn't meet Beebee and Bin today GAH.....

Angelical Formation

Sometimes I think you're an angel in disguise.

ARGGGHHHHH

YES I'M GRUMPYYYYY. I'm a....





GRUMPY BEAR!!!!

*Please ignore the calendar I got this picture from Google*

I like grumpy bear. It's grumpy like me and it's blue. Yay, my favourite colour!!


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Ok sorry I really didn't know what to blog about and I'm bored okay.

It just seems that every time I get online, I find (or bump) into things that piss me off! SERIOUSLY. Yeah yeah yeah, I'm grumpy like a prune.

Hmmm, wonder if the grouchiness is somewhat resulted cos I got the bug?

-.-zzz

Anyway, I've seen many things and I've given many thoughts on many issues..

And I've decided to abide by the rule - Ignorance is bliss.
Or, in my case, feigned ignorance is bliss.


I think ignorance is really a bliss, if you look at it in a short sight.
Eg, You are fat and everyone thinks that you're fat. But you are ignorant of it and you think that your figure is simply the best around the world and everyone else is just stick-thin.
What do you get?
A happy fat person.

See. Bliss. Happiness.

Ok, I'm strive towards that. No, I don't mean becoming fat but to not be so easily affected by things ( I'll just make believe that the world is beautiful)

Happy New Year!

Back from Thailand! It was fun fun fun, can I say anymore? I love my family to bitsssss and I really appreciate them for everything. :) And I want to especially thank my sister and my BIL for their care, patience and boundless understanding. Sigh, what more can I ask for. :)) Can't wait to visit Bangkok with them again :)

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Anyway... I think I'm very much like a Scorpio. ;0)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

HAPPY 19TH To BUNNY! :DDDD

Big girl now huh :) Sorry for the unfortunate timing of my trip but I know you'll have fun de lah!

And Happy belated birthday to GEENA!

I wanted to post this on the 20th but Emo struck me on the same day *sorry* Hahahaha.



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Ok, that's all for now. I'm very tired. Will be back on Wednesday- Don't cry yourself to sleep thinking of me! :D hahaha :D

Anyway, will reply to the comments next time! My eyelids are seriously threatening to close any minute....*snoreeeee

Buddy

hahahaha I know it's very random but...


I love my Steph!




Ok lah, this is totally random I swear.



;)

Friends

I think true friends are hard to come by.

If you have them (or you think you do :-o) , treasure them well.

Remember to express your love for them.
Talk
Listen
Encourage
Support
Trust


Every rant or rave is important.

Gong xi ah gong xi, Fa ah fa da cai~

I was on a bus heading from AMK to Hougang....


Peering out of the window ( I heart window seats),
I counted 16 people wearing RED!!!!!! :DDDD

Tell me, isn't that an indication of the brewing festive mood? ;)

Mind you, I did not include those wearing pink or other lighter shades of red like these. Only numbered those who wore those super eye-catching red. ;))))


p.s actually got 19 lah. But cos 16's my favourite number, I pretended not to see the other 3 wearing red. :-0


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I realised I'm quite okay with CNY songs lah.

I only find those improvised with rapping (?!) or personal greetings from the celebs ( I seriously don't give a damn) irritating.


GAH!


HOPE I STRIKE 4D!!!
eh, don't blame me for being greedy. That's the feeling I've gotten after listening to those fa cai songs.


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Went City plaza with Bunny, Gab and Tp few days ago.

Heh heh, spotted some prostitutes! (couldn't be sure, but they were dressed very revealingly and colourfully. HMMMM, suspicious!)

So fun.

blog more about it next time. :D

Michael Jackson and The Office

I have been lazing at home for couple of days :)

Which explains why I have been catching up with some shows and training my vocals at home.

:D

YES, I have a mic at home. And I have the Westlife Karaoke VCD. So... what's missing? :D



MUAHAHA. Anyway, it was a rewardful day when Gabriel decided to play this Michael Jackson music videos VCD and whooooo!

It was so cool!!

Before M.J (no, it's not mahjong, bunny) lost his King status and everything, he was super charming can! Yeah, I know it's kind of gross now to say that MJ was charming but he simply was, you have to watch the videos!!

the legs! the voice! the beat of the music! the legs!


I swear it got my goosebumps popping out.

Anyway, once the videos were played, my parents had themselves seated in front of the TV and started recollecting how MJ was like in their era.. blah blah etc. It was pleasant, to say the least :) I simply enjoy watching the tube with my parents. It's like.. family bonding, you know. :)

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On the other hand, I LOVE THE OFFICE!!


It doesn't really revolve around office affairs lah, more like, revolves around the interaction between the diversity of people.

HEHEHE, watching it makes me happy :D

Ok lah, I'm off to watch it now. Tata!

Just a sneaky feeling

Sometimes you feel like there is something bugging you but you can't really pin-point what it is.

Then you struggle to find out.





This is happening to me.


But when I managed to find out what the problem is,

why am I not satisfied?

BINNY

I'm at loss of topics to blog about. Binny said that I could blog about her, so here goes.

some facts about her:

1. She is looking for a job now. *but she's very picky*

2. She wishes she could rot at home while jobs go knocking on her door. ( heh, reminds me of Guns 'n' Roses's Knocking on Heaven's door. :p)

Conclusions about her? Make it yourself:D *hint. Starts with a 'L' ends with a 'Y'*


3. We often have breakdown in communication. It's difficult to give an example but our conversations often lead to nowhere.


4. She's as random as me. (muahahha! To think that it's possible to have someone as random as me! *gleeful!*)

For instance...

Binny says:
wah

Binny says:
i so long no go kbox le

Binny says:
and the koala bear looks so cute ah!



me:-_____________-


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See, I also nice. Never write down your name.

Ok lah, kidding ah you don't get offended ahhhh!


:D


ok shall go off to eat dinner with family now.
byebye!